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Waiting…

No news, she still seems pretty happy in there kicking about and hiccuping so I’m trying to chill out and just enjoy the waiting. I’m not super uncomfortable or feeling horrible so as long as she is out before 42 weeks all is good (I really want to have her at the Birth Centre).

My brain has definitely been jumping all over the place, I was reading my ‘to do lists’ before I turn 30/before I turn 29 and was laughing at myself. I already feel older and I think I’ll be deleting them with this new found sense of I don’t know what. Maybe it comes with growing up or being on the verge of another major life changing event…who knows, I could also just be losing my sentimentality!

I think instead I’m just going to focus on family and growing as a mother and being the best parent I can be. I can’t guarantee there won’t be any more lists (they do seem to be the blog thing) but I don’t think I’ll go as crazy.

PS: If anyone has any suggestions for photo projects or newborn project kind of things that should start from day one or the first month let me know. I still plan on doing the monthly blanket photo as I did with Logan and then a photo a week for 2015 but if anything else springs to mind for people please let me know.

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As we draw to a close…

smarties

So I’m officially overdue and further along than I was when I had Logan. No 23rd baby which I was not so secretly hoping for and now we’re playing the waiting game. I’m starting to feel some niggles so hopefully things will get rolling without me being super overdue. For now I’m just enjoying our last moments as a family of three and getting lots of things done:

  • I’ve downloaded music – hurrah for relaxation tracks but who knows if I’ll actually want them.
  • The nursery is done enough for now, I still need to iron the curtains (snore) and get the Hubby to fix up the curtain rod but it’s cute and habitable. I still want to secure the Ikea spice racks to her chest of draws for books and fix up the lighting situation. I’m also still waiting to receive some custom frames I ordered online and then I’ll need to put some art up. I’ve also ordered some washi tape to put some more art up – that’s still trendy right haha!
  • Snacks have been bought (including Adriano Zumbo salted caramel tim-tams although they’re more for the support crew).
  • Bags are packed (minus in use toiletries)
  • Names are getting sorted out – we have a short list!!!
  • Logan and I are having lots of one on one time, it might not always be adventures but I’m loving spending time with my little man. Who today swore he was not a boy, he was Logan and I was Jessica Mummy not a girl – heart officially melting.
  • We’re going on family dates, yesterday was the zoo and today was dinner out.
  • The car has been washed, floors vacuumed (that is a pregnant lady back killer), the dog is nice and clean.

Hopefully this is my last post before I get to share a beautiful photo of our darling daughter but who knows what the future holds, for now it’s living in the moment for this little family of three.

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Speak up you’re a mama now

Or Papa or caregiver…

But what I'm getting at is those little moments. You may or may not know the ones depending on your personality but I'm talking about when someone makes a derogatory comment and you just sit there quietly seething but not wanting to speak up. Some people are born with the ability to shout their views from the roof top and be outspoken when it comes to disagreeing with someone or expressing their opinion. Others such as myself can't do this. I often realise this when I'm with my sister-in-law who is incredibly vocal sometimes too much so (she told me I wouldn't be able to cut it as a teacher…she is currently studying to be a highschool English teacher) and I feel like a shrinking violet not willing to speak up.

Last night at dinner my family made some horrible comments that families do when they feel safe in their surroundings. Australia definitely has an undercurrent of racism and anyone who argues otherwise is bullshitting. So how, if you're a wallflower can you express your opinion? This was the question I posed to myself after the dinner – after all, I'm a Mama now and I don't want Logan to grow up thinking negative/derogatory/racist comments are ever ok no matter where you are.

I'm going to start by expressing myself more with my family. After all they aren't going to disown me if I tell them off for saying something offensive. I am also going to ask that those comments not be said around Logan, just as they won't swear around him they shouldn't be saying offensive things either. I'm hoping this will make me stronger when I'm outside my comfort zone. I will be honest and say that I won't take on anyone who looks like they would hit me if we're out in public and I more than likely won't argue with strangers. But in those moments I will do my best to educate Logan as to why what was said or done was wrong.

It's all about us doing our own bit to make sure the world our children inherit is full of love and positivity not violence and hatred. I'm starting small but aiming high. After all, I'm a mama now, I'm in charge of leading a child through life until he is old enough to make his own decisions. Hopefully, with my help the majority of them will be the right ones.

 

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Speak up you’re a mama now

Or Papa or caregiver…

But what I'm getting at is those little moments. You may or may not know the ones depending on your personality but I'm talking about when someone makes a derogatory comment and you just sit there quietly seething but not wanting to speak up. Some people are born with the ability to shout their views from the roof top and be outspoken when it comes to disagreeing with someone or expressing their opinion. Others such as myself can't do this. I often realise this when I'm with my sister-in-law who is incredibly vocal sometimes too much so (she told me I wouldn't be able to cut it as a teacher…she is currently studying to be a highschool English teacher) and I feel like a shrinking violet not willing to speak up.

Last night at dinner my family made some horrible comments that families do when they feel safe in their surroundings. Australia definitely has an undercurrent of racism and anyone who argues otherwise is bullshitting. So how, if you're a wallflower can you express your opinion? This was the question I posed to myself after the dinner – after all, I'm a Mama now and I don't want Logan to grow up thinking negative/derogatory/racist comments are ever ok no matter where you are.

I'm going to start by expressing myself more with my family. After all they aren't going to disown me if I tell them off for saying something offensive. I am also going to ask that those comments not be said around Logan, just as they won't swear around him they shouldn't be saying offensive things either. I'm hoping this will make me stronger when I'm outside my comfort zone. I will be honest and say that I won't take on anyone who looks like they would hit me if we're out in public and I more than likely won't argue with strangers. But in those moments I will do my best to educate Logan as to why what was said or done was wrong.

It's all about us doing our own bit to make sure the world our children inherit is full of love and positivity not violence and hatred. I'm starting small but aiming high. After all, I'm a mama now, I'm in charge of leading a child through life until he is old enough to make his own decisions. Hopefully, with my help the majority of them will be the right ones.

 

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Liebster award

Thank you to the ever wonderful Lila at Little Wolff for nominating me. I’m not usually one to participate in these kinds of things but I loved reading Lila’s responses so thought what the heck! Forgive me for not going ahead with some of the rules but I couldn’t reach 9 bloggers without crossing over with who Lila nominated. If you want to participate feel free to leave a comment with 11 facts about yourself πŸ˜‰

Courtesy of Lila:

Liebster is a German word that means dearest, and this award is given to up and coming bloggers with less than 200 followers who you think deserves more recognition.

Here are the rules:

– List 11 random facts about yourself
– Answer the 11 questions which are given to you by your nominator
– Ask 11 new questions for all the bloggers that you nominate to win the award
– Nominate 9 bloggers with less than 200 followers to win the award
– Go to each of the blogger’s pages to let them know about their nomination
– Thank the blogger who nominated you by mentioning them and link back to their blog

  1. I used to despise coffee, the smell, the taste, everything!
  2. I’m extremely awkward around new people – I’d never be the first to start up a conversation with a stranger.
  3. I overshare (why else would I be a blogger haha)
  4. I can see both sides of an argument – doesn’t mean I won’t quit fighting about something.
  5. I always wanted 4 kids
  6. Chocolate cake does nothing for me
  7. I made a deal with Andreas to change our surname on our tenth wedding anniversary (I don’t see that happening)
  8. I would love to adopt a child and wish it wasn’t so hard to do in Australia
  9. I know what fashion is but I have no sense of style
  10. I punched myself in the nose at boxing today – I’m completely uncoordinated!
  11. I will have another “wedding”/vow renewal in the distant future

1. Were you named after someone? or did you name your children after someone?
My middle name is after my maternal grandmother who I never met and Logan’s middle name is in honour of both grandfathers.

2. Would you rather invest in, nice clothes, good furniture or art?​
This is a hard one between art and furniture – most of our art is hand-me-down but I really would love to update all our furniture so I’m going with that!

3. Where is your dream location, holiday or home?
Apartment in New York!​

4. What’s your favourite scent?
Camping but if I have to be specific probably the smell of dew when you wake up early in the morning.​

5. What’s your favourite piece of clothing / jewellery?​
My engagement ring with it’s coincidental upside-down A.

6. What was the last song you heard?​
Something on Triple J.

7. What’s your favourite desert?​
Icky Sticky Toffee Pudding which I finally learnt to make last year.

8. What’s your favourite season?​
Winter – I love being able to get rugged up

9. Who do you most want to have a long conversation with?
My Nana who passed last year.​

10. What do you like most about blogging?
The friends I’ve made.​

11.​ What is your oldest memory?
This is a doozy because it’s hard to differentiate between photos & stories. I think I remember walking down a hall when my sister was born.

Once again feel free to participate, thank you Lila for sharing your answers and letting me reveal even more of myself!

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Back to it

Work that is…

I started last week, just two days (Thursday and Friday) and really enjoyed it. Unfortunately (& I say that in a completely non judgemental way!) I had to put Logan in daycare. So far it isn't going great but we will keep at it. He has always been a very clingy and difficult baby/toddler so I knew it wasn't going to be a walk in the park as it had been for other mothers. I'm just hoping that he doesn't take after his father in this regard and daycare just isn't for him because I thoroughly enjoyed my two days of work!

On the work front I'm branching out from recruitment (yay) and getting to apply my studies more, the downside I have to deal with workers compensation (boo). I'm not looking forward to having to deal with the cases where it's obvious fraud and they're just trying to sucker us but I guess it will be good to expand my skill set. I'm definitely not tough enough for the role but hopefully that will improve with time and it will be good helping people return to work after injury etc…

It's strange going back after such a significant amount of time off. People have come and gone, offices have been moved and our interview room is once again in a donga! But everyone was so welcoming and my team is brilliant so all good things.

In regards to daycare I took Logan in today and stayed with him for roughly 40 minutes. He started off really clingy and unhappy but after all the babies had finished lunch he started playing with toys and interacting lots more. 2 of the boys there are in my mum's group which is good. Although one was being a bit pushy in this sly adorable way. Logan didn't mind, I think he thought he got pushed to the ground in a hug gone wrong haha. I wanted to take him back in because otherwise he would have had 5 whole days without being there and it would have really messed him about.

He was a mess this past weekend though and completely obsessed with me. We had to be standing up and holding him for him to stop crying and he even wound up sleeping in our bed Friday night because he was inconsolable. He's definitely having massive separation anxiety problems so any suggestions would be great. He's also started hating his highchairs with a passion and not enjoying swimming in his paddling pool so it was a hard weekend. I think he actually cried with minimal breaks for about 20 hours straight – it was like having a newborn all over again.

Surprisingly I'm now more than ever keen for another baby and probably sooner rather than later. I feel terrible though because I more than likely will be pregnant again and have been at work for less than a year. But life and family are more important than a job and I don't want a huge age gap between them either.

Off to exercise soon (hurrah) we lost our trainer to a honeymoon over the holidays so it will be good to get back into the swing of things. I'm happy I haven't put on any excess weight which really surprised me because I've stopped breastfeeding and haven't been eating super healthy either. But back to more workouts so I don't put any more on and hopefully can shed a few more kilos!

 

 

 

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So long 2012 it’s been swell

Tomorrow marks the beginning of another year and today the end of one. We aren't doing anything special, just spending dinner with the in-laws and having a big swim in their pool. I've made an eggnog raspberry concoction cake and have fingers crossed that it tastes good!

2012 was a pretty good year for us bar a messy breakup within the family so here are some of the highlights:

  1. Mum & my step-dad thing the knot and then taking us all on a family honeymoon to Bali.
  2. My little sister getting engaged to her amazing fiancΓ©.
  3. Going to Toronto and Niagara Falls.
  4. Trick or treating in Canada.
  5. Not working (bar the 24/7 Mum thing).
  6. The 24/7 Mum thing turning into something I really enjoy.
  7. Logan turning 1!
  8. Spending lots more time with my Mum.
  9. My mother's group known as Boob Wednesday.
  10. Doing personal training sessions on a consistent basis.

Resolutions always pop up this time of year and I've been noticing that 'themes' have become popular too. I decided to settle on the following:

 

  1. Be healthy – this is a little broad but I don't want to limit myself and then feel frustrated or fail!
  2. Be myself minus the naggy bitch – I tend to be a wallflower in large social situations so now I'm going to let my voice be heard. The nb part is so Andreas doesn't run for the hills screaming and so I stop bitching about people/situations.
  3. Be a doer not a thinker – I spend far too much time reading about stuff on the net than I do doing it. I really want to get our home into order so this is a big one for me!
So from us to you have an amazing end to 2012 and I hope 2013 is filled with joy for you all and if at times it isn't remember you're not alone.

 

All my love xoxo

 

 

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The BIG 3-0

Everyone likes to rub it in that I’m the baby, the young Mum and I have nothing at all against it! I embrace it wholeheartedly and whilst sometimes I wish I had closer friends in the same boat with me ultimately it doesn’t matter. But that isn’t what I intended to discuss with this post. This post was/is going to tie in with the whole point of this blog – buckets and crossing those suckers off my list.

I regularly make lists, especially to do ones or bucket lists. I have an unfinished 100 things to do before I die list that will never be finished because I find myself wanting to put things on there that I’ve already done. This made me realise that I can’t even fathom some of the awesome things that are out there that I’m yet to enjoy so why bother with a list. That didn’t stop me from wanting to create a 30 before 30 list, I figured with less than 4 years to go I could cross off some pretty fun things and also a lot of things I’ve been procrastinating over. It’s hard to know quite what to put on a list like this though and how do you measure certain things? For example one thing is to do things outside my comfort zone – I haven’t put a specific limit on how many or how often so how do I know when it’s completed? I blame university for making me think this way, having to make goals with are specific and measurable (there is some specific term for it but my mummy brain isn’t letting me remember!). I’m just going to go with the flow though and even if I don’t achieve everything or I only half achieve something it’s more about having fun along the way!

Surprise, surprise but this list also isn’t finished but when it is I’ll be making it a page and setting it at the top of this blog. Hopefully I’ll still be around when I turn 30 but I love the online community too much to ever disappear completely!

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Days like These

Those days were everything is just lots of fun or seems to just flow seamlessly. Today is one of those days and I love it, they’ve been few and far between recently so that’s made today extra special.

First I had an amazing night sleep, because it was a warm night I insisted on sleeping with the fan on. Usually I always sleep with a fan on and love white noise but I gave Logan our fan in the hopes of drowning out noise from our neighbours etc… So I had to learn to sleep without one. Turns out I sleep a whole lot better with a fan on, I’m assuming it’s because it blocks out Logan’s nighttime snuffling (not the crying just the noises he makes when he doesn’t need one of us!). I even thought he’d slept in because I hadn’t heard a peep but Andreas had gotten him up which was great.

That was followed by a proper walk with my Mum, Logan and the dogs and a nice long talk about housing and future plans. Logan went down for his morning nap about 15 minutes after we got back and I managed to sort out the living room and tidy up a bit (the house still looks like a bomb hit it but meh). Unfortunately he only slept for a little over an hour but it gave me time to have breakfast (blueberry pikelets with maple syrup and cream – shame on me I know), clean, shower and relax a bit.

After that we met up with my Mum again and went out to have coffees, do some shopping and have lunch. I also got some fanastic news from a friend (I can’t share yet unfortunately because I don’t know who reads this blog) and wanted to scream in the middle of a busy market, isn’t that the best kind of news! I also managed to score Logan some more onesies – yes he’s turning 1 soon but they’re so easy for travel and layering.

Now I’m back home, I’ve bought in a load of washing and I’m getting to blog. Next up (if Logan has a long nap, he went down at 3 and usually he’s fast asleep at 130 whoops!) is finishing 3 photo books. I’ve also got a dinner out with two girls from Mum’s Group which will be nice, a perfect end to a great day!

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